Mr S

Dear Mr S....

I just realize that i love you . Why i don't realize it from the begining when we still together ? Why this feeling must come in wrong situation ? I know you come in the right situation . But u go in the wrong situation . I must move on from you 'coz i just feel like u'r gonna leave me soon and move on from me of course . I can't say it right now because i feel like it's useless . Maybe u don't have any feel with me anymore . Let it become my love experience or i must forget this memories . The memories about u and i . I just feel like u r the right one . Yeah , Mr Right and then u suddenly turn into Mr Wrong . But for me , u r the best guy that i've ever met . It's just that i feel like a fool . i just feel like i've dumped you . But everything i wanna say is SORRY FOR THE THINGS I"VE DONE TO YOU MR S ! Will we meet in the right situation again ? i don't think so . Will you come again to my life ? It depends on you . You know what , i really welcome u to my life . If don't , maybe our destiny is just become a friend .

One day passed and i keep on thinking of you . I know u won't read this 'coz u r too busy with ur college , friends and please don't say new girl ! I wanna wait for u to come back but i guess , it's useless *again* . I know it's too late for me to realize that i love you . i know that feeling inside u just gone . It's impossible for me to catch u back . Not because i don't want you anymore . But i guess u can find another girl with what u have . And i feel so shy with that .

Last but not least , i thank to you that u've ever made me as someone special and of course perfect ! i can't say safe flight to you cause my blackberry with my dad and i'm being punished . U don't need to get mad with Stella . It's me , I'm the one who always ruins everything . Just like a troublemaker . And , don't ever regret our short-story-relationship . It's not because i don't wanna accept u as my boyfriend and the special one . But the situation is u know what . It's not in a good condition . I LOVE YOU BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON FROM YOU . LET US MEET IN ANOTHER LIFE . WILL YOU ?

Nothing

Just want u to now that i still live u day and night and i can't so that easily forget u :(

Galau

hai !
long time no open right ? kinda busy with some school stuffs and lazy to open it . Okay ! i'm a little bit sad today . Not a little bit anymore . but lots ! i'm quarelling with my bofie . yeah , as always . it's my fault again . i feel like i'm always wrong in his eyes . everything i act , it's just a stupid act and it causes a little problem and then it turns into a big problem ! sometimes , i can't handle it by myself . i just can cry and in the end , i blame myself . why is it happen to me ? why must me ? why i'm the one who always make any mistakes ? why not he ? why he seldom say sorry for me in a big problem .

now , i'm waiting for his chat . i've said sorry just now . but this fucking internet ruined everything ! and damn ! he's offline 'till now . i just can sit and crying , waiting for his chat and miracle or something . it really waist my time ! isn't it ? wish a kind-hearted person , lending me his or her cellphone .

well , in the end , i just wanna say :
sorry boy , i've done lot's mistake . will u forgive me ? pleaseeeeeeee !!!!! i beg you !!!! i won't make that mistake anymore.........

sincerly ,
Carin