Mr S

Dear Mr S....

I just realize that i love you . Why i don't realize it from the begining when we still together ? Why this feeling must come in wrong situation ? I know you come in the right situation . But u go in the wrong situation . I must move on from you 'coz i just feel like u'r gonna leave me soon and move on from me of course . I can't say it right now because i feel like it's useless . Maybe u don't have any feel with me anymore . Let it become my love experience or i must forget this memories . The memories about u and i . I just feel like u r the right one . Yeah , Mr Right and then u suddenly turn into Mr Wrong . But for me , u r the best guy that i've ever met . It's just that i feel like a fool . i just feel like i've dumped you . But everything i wanna say is SORRY FOR THE THINGS I"VE DONE TO YOU MR S ! Will we meet in the right situation again ? i don't think so . Will you come again to my life ? It depends on you . You know what , i really welcome u to my life . If don't , maybe our destiny is just become a friend .

One day passed and i keep on thinking of you . I know u won't read this 'coz u r too busy with ur college , friends and please don't say new girl ! I wanna wait for u to come back but i guess , it's useless *again* . I know it's too late for me to realize that i love you . i know that feeling inside u just gone . It's impossible for me to catch u back . Not because i don't want you anymore . But i guess u can find another girl with what u have . And i feel so shy with that .

Last but not least , i thank to you that u've ever made me as someone special and of course perfect ! i can't say safe flight to you cause my blackberry with my dad and i'm being punished . U don't need to get mad with Stella . It's me , I'm the one who always ruins everything . Just like a troublemaker . And , don't ever regret our short-story-relationship . It's not because i don't wanna accept u as my boyfriend and the special one . But the situation is u know what . It's not in a good condition . I LOVE YOU BUT I HAVE TO MOVE ON FROM YOU . LET US MEET IN ANOTHER LIFE . WILL YOU ?

Nothing

Just want u to now that i still live u day and night and i can't so that easily forget u :(

Galau

hai !
long time no open right ? kinda busy with some school stuffs and lazy to open it . Okay ! i'm a little bit sad today . Not a little bit anymore . but lots ! i'm quarelling with my bofie . yeah , as always . it's my fault again . i feel like i'm always wrong in his eyes . everything i act , it's just a stupid act and it causes a little problem and then it turns into a big problem ! sometimes , i can't handle it by myself . i just can cry and in the end , i blame myself . why is it happen to me ? why must me ? why i'm the one who always make any mistakes ? why not he ? why he seldom say sorry for me in a big problem .

now , i'm waiting for his chat . i've said sorry just now . but this fucking internet ruined everything ! and damn ! he's offline 'till now . i just can sit and crying , waiting for his chat and miracle or something . it really waist my time ! isn't it ? wish a kind-hearted person , lending me his or her cellphone .

well , in the end , i just wanna say :
sorry boy , i've done lot's mistake . will u forgive me ? pleaseeeeeeee !!!!! i beg you !!!! i won't make that mistake anymore.........

sincerly ,
Carin

Singapore !

Hey !
I'm singapore right now ! it's cold and a little bit dark here . it's gonna rain ! and everyday it's always rain . just like bruno mars' song !

I'm pretty bored in singapore . how come it's always rain and just stay at apartment without do anything else ! just the same with a pig

nICE dAY

Wonderful day !

i hanged out with my cousins ! we went to karoke , and we sang lot's of songs , dancing , laughing together ! then we photoshooted together ! what a funny day ! my cousins , Albert , sang smash's song ! well , he was smashblast ! we also sang kids songs ! buahahahahahahaha ! and of course i was singing my lovely song , maroon 5 ! i'm really addicted with that song ! well , i just wanna say , happy bufday to Beryl , my beloved cousin ! be a great boy ! 

what a boring day

hey my blog !
i feel sucks today ! Don't know why . Feels everything has changed . My friends , people around me , i feel it's pretty change a lot . Just now at my school , i feel bored when i sat alone . Then , when i went to cinema to watch movie , i felt so lonely even i watched final destanation part 5 . Even i screamed loudly when a horrible scene came out , i felt so lonely again . And i thought , my two besties changed a lot . They always talked something funny and when i entered their conversation , they always said " just ignored her " . I knew it's just a joked but i felt envy with their words . Seems i'm not good enough to tell something funny or i couldn't make a joked ??? Arrrghhhhh.......... feels strange 'till now . -_- . And i also thought , my best friend just need me when she is upset or hmmmmm.... need my advice . I can't fvck her 'coz i still care 'bout her . But is she always care about me ??? And the second one , i feel my parents don't care with me too. They just over-protecting and caring too much with my 'lil sister . Me ??? Just like a strange person in my house .

For all my problems that i must face it by myself , i just can pray to God and i hope God will give me a reason or God will help me solve my problem ! Hope everything will be normal soon........ I hope sooo... :)

Long Time No Open

Yesterday :
Haii bloggers ! Ud lama aku gak buka blog aku . Yahh salah satu faktornya karena g bisa dibuka ! Semalam gw ngalamin kejadian kerennn banget ! Ngakak bareng geng Unyuk di cafe Sunshine di Sun Plaza tepatnya ! Gw dpt temen" baru dr hasil lawakanku ! Yahh... Aku sbnrnya cuma kenal Brenda , Aphong sama Lora di Geng Unyuk ituu ! wkwkwkwkwk sumpahh lawak bangett mrekaa... energi gw terkuras abiss cuma buad lawak".. wkwkwkwkwk But i've got a lot of fun ! New friends , more experience ! hahahahay ! i love it !

Today :
i'm waiting for my friend answer right now . Ok ! my feeling tells me that he has had a new crush . Not me anymore . Yeah.. Mr P had told me that he hasn't a special girl in my life . i think , mr P is trying to ignore me . Cos he doesn't in love with me anymore . Ok ! Let's focus on study ! There's no time to thinking about Mr P or another sh*t boys in my life . If everything is back to normal , ohhh well... Let's discuss about it . hahahahahahahaha